but Xu Yun started passionately pursuing him.
He had clearly rejected her and explained he already had a partner.
Yet, Xu Yun was stubborn.
Even if he said that, she persisted, claiming that unmarried men and women could have partners too.

Back then, He Yue felt he couldn’t reveal the truth to Xu Yun, so he politely declined time after time.
Until one day, she caught him with his partner.

Although it startled him, He Yue thought Xu Yun would give up after that.

But she didn’t.
Later, she used that incident to threaten him, saying if he didn’t enter a relationship with her, she would reveal his homosexuality.

He Yue hadn’t agreed.

But the parents of both families started socializing more and more, and despite He Yue’s attempts to avoid it, there were times he couldn’t avoid running into Xu Yun.
Family gatherings, a bit of alcohol, and the family’s members being pleased resulted in locking the two young people in a room.

Actually, He Yue could handle his liquor fairly well, but that night, he happened to get incredibly drunk, even losing consciousness.
He woke up with gaps in his memory.
Later, Xu Yun claimed they had become intimate that night.
He Yue didn’t believe it at all, because he felt no attraction toward women.

But then Xu Yun said she was pregnant.
Coupled with not recalling what exactly had happened that night, under Xu Yun’s repeated crying and her family’s urging, He Yue began to doubt if he had done something wrong.

Subsequently, he and his partner broke up, and for the sake of responsibility, he married Xu Yun.

Afterward, Xu Yun raised He Changkong like He Yue, but He Yue was generally silent at home.
The most painful thing for him every day was going “home.” He couldn’t reveal any hint of himself even in front of the innocent child.
He numbly fulfilled his duties as a father.

This kind of life tormented him for several years.
He had countless nights where he thought that death might be better.


As He Changkong grew older, he grew less and less like He Yue.
Finally, on one day, He Yue secretly arranged for a paternity test.

When the results came out, he was infuriated, almost immediately divorcing Xu Yun and leaving everything behind in Yun City, heading far away.

Facing a child who wasn’t actually his, he knew rationally that He Changkong was innocent, but emotionally, he couldn’t accept it at the time.

It wasn’t until some time had passed that he decided to return and see the child.

However, during that visit, he didn’t manage to meet the child, but he got entangled with Xu Yun again.
Xu Yun kept changing her approach, first begging him to come back, and when he didn’t agree, she started to threaten him.
He Yue ignored her, so she became annoyed and declared indignantly that she had already told the child.
The child didn’t want to meet a gay father like him at all.

He Yue found it rather amusing.
In fact, he wasn’t He Changkong’s father at all.

Entanglement indeed brought no benefits.
After He Yue left once again, he truly never returned.
However, he maintained some form of contact with He Changkong.
When He Changkong started primary school, He Yue had a friend who taught at that school.
He had heard about a pen pal activity organized there, so He Yue voluntarily became He Changkong’s pen pal.

Of course, he didn’t use his usual writing style, instead adopting that of a stranger, keeping up this correspondence roughly until He Changkong graduated from elementary school.
Even at that young age, He Changkong’s letters sounded a bit like an adult’s.
They mostly revolved around school matters, occasionally mentioning his mother’s high expectations and strictness and his resolve to work harder.
From those letters, He Yue had never sensed that He Changkong was not doing well.

Later, for reasons unknown, whether due to a change of job and address that made contact difficult or because the child had reached adolescence and wasn’t willing to write such things anymore, the correspondence ceased.

And it remained that way until now.

Listening to all this, Shen Yanming’s emotions went from shock to melancholy.
In the end, he didn’t know what to say, and he awkwardly said, “The professor told me I’m too impulsive, but he still directly told me all these things…”

He Yue took a sip of water and smiled, “Did I say my story was true? It’s just a story.”

Shen Yanming said, “…At the very least, that paternity test should be real.
You didn’t know if I would come over, so it wouldn’t be easy to fake that in advance.”

He Yue then asked, “Can what I said be of any help to you?”

Shen Yanming shook his head, “Honestly, I don’t know.
But I think he’s really messed up mentally because he found out his father is a morally tainted deceitful gay.
How should I put it… I don’t know about others, but even if I complain about my dad on the surface, I still think of my dad as the first hero in my life… Maybe the dad in Kong ge’s heart was also very magnificent, and it all just crumbled, he definitely wouldn’t be able to handle that.”

He Yue fell silent for a long time, “You’re a good kid.
To be honest, I haven’t been in touch with Changkong for many years.
I don’t know what kind of person he’s grown into now, so I can’t give you any advice.
But as you’ve said, if you go back and tell him all this, he might develop new issues.
You understand, right?”

Shen Yanming pondered, “I do.” To think that the supposed father wasn’t actually his real father, and he didn’t even know who his real father was… It sounded incredibly tragic.

A knock sounded from outside the door.
“Perhaps a student is looking for me,” He Yue called out, “Wait a moment.”

Shen Yanming stood up, “Thank you, Professor He.
I’ll probably tell Kong ge about this.
Even if it might make him upset, he shouldn’t be kept in the dark about this kind of thing.” Not exaggerating, at this point, Shen Yanming felt irritated by He Changkong’s deceitful mother.
He had once felt some sympathy for her, but now that was completely gone.
He only wanted He Changkong to extricate himself from these messy matters as soon as possible.


He Yue nodded.

Shen Yanming added, “Then I’ll leave first.
I’m really thankful for your time today.”

He Yue said, “Won’t you stay for a meal?”

Shen Yanming replied, “No, I need to hurry back for training.”

He Yue: “You’re really diligent, I hope you’ll achieve good results in the competition.”

Shen Yanming scratched his head, “Definitely.”

After saying that, Shen Yanming was about to leave, but He Yue remembered something and stopped him, “Leave me your contact information.”

Although Shen Yanming had sounded quite certain at the time, saying he would definitely talk to Kong ge, when it came time to actually speak, he felt a bit hesitant.
They had a match in two days, and it might not be the best time to bring this up.
Maybe he should wait another two days?

What if He Changkong’s mental state deteriorated further? It wasn’t just about the competition.
If He Changkong had another breakdown and lost the match, it would be a heavy blow to him.

Worried and concerned, Shen Yanming didn’t know how long he had been in the bathroom.
He had been in there so long that He Changkong felt something was amiss and came to knock on the bathroom door.

Startled by the sudden knocking, Shen Yanming jumped, “Okay, okay!”

He turned off the shower, quickly dried himself, put on his clothes, and rushed out.
He Changkong looked at him somewhat concerned, “Why were you in there for so long?”

Shen Yanming had already decided to talk about the matter after the match.
He was about to change the topic when a bright idea struck him.
He walked up to He Changkong with his body still damp from the shower, lightly bit on the nape of He Changkong’s neck, and said, “I did something bad inside.”

After saying it, he felt his ears getting warm.
Shen Yanming lowered his head and pinched his earlobe.

Truth be told, he didn’t know what came over him.
When he was being stared at by He Changkong, he suddenly felt like doing something bad.

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