Unspeakable

’t even after a long time.

Seeing Gu Yansheng come and squat down in front of him, he was so anxious that he didn’t know what to do.
At a loss, he wiped the sweat on his face, looked up at Gu Yansheng with red eyes, and said in a dumb voice.

“A’Sheng, I’m sorry, I’ll go right away.”

He only looked at him for a moment, then hurriedly averted his eyes struggling to grasp the trunk of the tree trying to get up again but his body has no strength at all not to mention his stomach was twisted with pain, and as soon as he tried to do the action of getting up, he felt that the intestines inside were twisted into dead knots and stretched to the limit, as if they were about to break at a touch.

Gu Yansheng held out his hand to hold his shoulder and wanted to ask him what was wrong with him.
He had just been hurt by someone, but he avoided him like an electric shock and curled up against the trunk.
Then he trembled his lips and began to admit his mistake incoherently and beg for mercy.

“I know it’s wrong, A’Sheng, I really know it’s wrong, but don’t hit me first.
I’ll..tomorrow… I have something important tomorrow.
I can do it after tomorrow, I promise…”

Gu Yansheng was silent for a moment and stubbornly stretched out his hand to hold his thin and cold arm.
At that moment, he shrank, and his eyes closed tightly, which was a subconscious reaction when people felt that they were going to be beaten.

He was so scared that he was shaking, his face was white as paper and he didn’t dare to move.

Gu Yansheng thought of the stray dog that he saw playing downstairs when he was a child.
He was frightened by the stamping and shouting of other children and was shivering in the corner.

When the children were gone, he walked over and held it in his arms.
He stroked his back along with the hair from its head.
He calmed down, sobbed, and licked his hand, then his thin claws hugged his arm.

Just like two peas in the corner, Shen Kanyu looked at him almost the same.

Gu Yangsheng sighed and lowered his voice as he said softly.

“I’m not telling you to get lost.”

Shen Kanyu opened his eyes tremblingly and stared at him.
His forehead was wet with cold sweat, and his lips were frosty white.
It seemed as if he had just experienced a cold storm.
His limbs were stiff and his mind was dull.
And blank out for a long time.

Didn’t tell him to get lost?

But it’s time for him to go.

While A’Sheng was still not very angry and could still tolerate him, he has to apologize to him properly.
He didn’t expect him to forgive, he was just afraid that he would hold a grudge against him.

He doesn’t want him to remember and hate an annoying person, which will make him very unhappy.

He pulled the corner of his mouth towards Gu Yangsheng, revealing a smile that was so forced that it looked too ugly, but his eyes were still bright—as soon as he saw him, his eyes lit up, and the bottom of his eyes seemed to be filled with the entire star in the galaxy.

“Ah Sheng, I, I have something to say to you.”

He said courageously with his hoarse voice.

“Can you listen? I’ll speak quickly!”

Gu Yangsheng nodded with a calm face.

Shen Kanji waited with bated breath until he nodded his head as if he had received some special order, and after a sharp breath, he hurriedly said.

“You, you were drunk yesterday, and when I carried you to bed, I accidentally broke something, a crystal ornament that you wanted to give to Ah Tong, right? I bought an identical one back, I haven’t had time to bring it to you, I’ll give it to you right away when I get back.”

When Gu Yansheng heard that he realized that he took what happened the day before yesterday as if it happened yesterday.
He was afraid he was confused and couldn’t understand that he had been sick all day, he sighed as he said.

“That thing doesn’t matter.
You had a high fever and fainted for almost a whole day yesterday.
You took me home the day before yesterday.”

“Oh, yes, I… sorry, I wanted to go out yesterday, but I seemed too sleepy and fell asleep again… I remember I seemed to be coughing all the time, wasn’t it very noisy? Did you sleep well with Tian Tian?”

Shen Kanyu apologized to Gu Yansheng and smiled pleasantly.

“I won’t do this next time.
I’ll go out early.
Colds and fever are particularly contagious this season.
I didn’t pay attention.
I’m sorry, A’Sheng.”

Gu Yangsheng frowned: “Who taught you to run outside when you’re sick?”

“… ah?”

Shen Kanyu looked confused and didn’t understand why Gu Yansheng asked this.
It took him a long time before he said slowly.

“I’m sick… of course, I have to go outside.
What if I infect you and Tian Tian at home? The air outside is well circulated, I’ll be fine after walking for a while.”

If he gets well early, he can go home early.
He can heat some hot water for himself and drink it slowly in his quilt to keep warm.
He always felt that it was very cold outside this year.
It was only autumn, but he felt that every day was colder than the previous winter.

But he will soon have no home.
Although he rented a good house outside but there would be no more Tian Tian, A’Sheng, no mom and dad and brother, that was not home.

He’ll never have a home again.

“Also, there’s more, A’Sheng, I didn’t want to divorce you before, saying that there’s still something I want to help you, it’s all a lie.
In fact, the divorce I can also help you, I just want to rely on you for a period of time, because you really do not seem to hate me so much recently, so I got greedy,”

Shen Kanyu’s voice was getting smaller and smaller, and his smile was also getting dimmer.
His brain was in chaos as if he do not know what he was saying and just opened his as he keep saying.

” So when you want to, want to …… divorce, you can tell me, I can, you just say so.”

He looked down into his bag and took out a file and took out a thin piece of paper from inside.

“This… The divorce agreement has been signed by me.
I’ve packed up my things at home and found a place to live outside.
Why don’t I… I move out tonight? Or what do you and Tian Tian want to eat? I can cook dinner for you before I leave…”

The more he spoke, the more incoherent he became.
Halfway through the conversation, he remembered that Song Li was at home.
He quickly changed his mind and said.

“Sorry, I forgot that aunt was at home.
Aunt can make it for you.
I didn’t do well… I’ll buy you vegetables instead….
those at home are not fresh.”

“Your birthday is coming up, and I don’t know what to send you as a good gift …… those you don’t like ……”

Shen Kanyu rubbed the thin paper in his hand, looked up, and smiled cautiously at Gu Yangsheng, handing it to him with both hands.

“How do you like this ……?”