Pity Party(bxb)

{L.O.L – Lots of Lonliness.}

-Author.

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Shin already knew it. The way he kissed her, she called him baby was assurances to him. Samin hums besides him while he was in deep thought. Shin knew Cirrus had a girlfriend and it was sure he will prioritize his girlfriend over some gay temporary companion. Even though Cirrus clearly confirmed and reminded him every time that he was his bitch. But Shin always ignored those words continuously deluding himself. He was falling in deep abyss throughout the whole time without realizing anything. Now things getting practical and reality hits, it hurts so much.

While they were walking someone from the behind calls, ”Shinso? ” It was Kris. Shin didn notice Kris at the school compound. He looks at him with curiosity. Kris comes forward and smiles at him. But noticing the depressed aura around him he asks what happened. Samin seeing the whole thing and weirded out by the black guy and also surprised that someone talked with Shin can help but ask, ”Who are you? ”

Kris looks at Samin and smiles and extends his hand for a shake towards him, ”Im Kris. ” But Sam doesn take it so he awkwardly retreats. He looks at Shin and with a worried looks he says, ”Your cheek is swollen. Did you fall? ” Shin just nods his head. Kris then notices the cut on his jaw and touches it. ”You need to get it disinfected. Let me take you to a dispensary. ” He tries to hold his hand but Samin stops him. He wasn liking this guy from the start but now hes taking Shin with him. How bold. ”Hes going with me. ” He says with a irritated face.

”Who are you to him? ” Kris also cunningly replies.

”No one. ” This was usual. Samin never introduce Shin as his brother in front of other people. Only some people in the school barely knows it. As Samin doesn give a damn bout him, so people bully him as mush as they like. Shin was standing there without saying anything. His mind were somewhere else. ”Really? Then why will he go with a no one like you? Come on Shinso. ” He holds his hand and walks past Samin dragging Shin with him. This really irritated him. Samin didn like the idea of letting Shin go with that nigga. He harshly pulls Shins other arm and says with an angry tone, ”Hes my step brother. We
e going home. Now FUCK.OFF! ” Kris startles seeing his angry behaviour. As Samin misbehaved with Shins only friend he couldn help but to butt in. ”Samin. Don be rude with him. He only wanted to help me. ” Samin just sneers. Shin then looks at Kris and says, ”Kris, Im sorry on his behalf. I also appreciate your kindness but I really want to go home now. Ill see you in school tomorrow. ”

As Shin turns to leave Kris says, ”wait. Can I have your number? ” Shin hesitates at first but gives him anyways. When Kris leaves Samin says arrogantly, ”So you like to hang with niggas now huh?~ I heard black peoples dicks are usually big. You like it that much? ” Shin looks at him and just smiles. He then holds Samins hand and starts to walk again. This instantly shuts his blabbers and Samin again starts to hum with the lollipop in his mouth.

Beautiful creatures always look down on the less beautiful beings.

When they arrive home their parents were still at work. Samin disinfects Shins cut in the bathroom continuously cursing him for being so weak and pathetic. He then cooks some ramen for himself and Shin. The silence were so irritating when they were eating. Shins mind continuously went to Cirrus and his girlfriend. The whole day was so tiring for him. It was a long day. Curious to the business Shin asks Samin,

”When will the big game happen? ” Samin looks at him and says, ”Soccer? Five days after. ”

Cirrus was participating in the game. The game was among very prestigious schools and colleges. It was indeed a big game. Thats why Cirrus is participating. He was really not excited as he didn like outdoor games much. Plus he really doesn have any specific companion to go with. On the other hand Samin always goes to watch games and sports. So hes obviously going. Shin felt lonely. Samin noticing the sad vibe Shin giving and without thinking he blurts out,

”Wanna go with me this time? ” Shin was shocked. He looks at him with shining eyes. Even though he didn like sports he really wanted see Cirrus performance. And Samin wanting to take him with him really made him happy. But then he asks, ”What bout your friends? ” he was anxious. He didn want Samin to get criticized by his friends for him.

”What about them? ”

”Won they mind if I tag along? ” He nervously asks.

”What they mind or don mind is non of my business. Plus i won be telling around your my brother. ” He savagely replies.

”Then are you sure I can go with you? ”

”Huff~~I always have to say things at least two times to make you understand. Such a dumb brother. ” He dramatically sighs. Shin just smiles. His eyes were glimmering. He replies with a grin, ”Okay then. Ill go with you. ”

The day was especially tiring. With ups and downs of the whole day Shin felt like he spent all of his body energy. But his mood lightened a little after talking with Samin. Since tomorrow was weekend he was relaxed a bit. He wont have to see Cirrus. After the incident he was really anxious and hurt to talk with Cirrus. Seeing his face would pain him even more. Since he was tired he directly went to sleep after eating. Nobody woke him up so he slept for the half of the day and whole night.

Not noticing the tons of messages vibrating on his phone.

Next day Shin woke up with the ringtone of his phone. He wakes up drowsily and answers his phone. ”Hello? ”

”Why the ** weren you answering the phone and replying any messages ? ” An extremely angry and low voice. It was Cirrus. His mood was very bad. Anyone can tell from his voice that he can murder the whole world. Shin can even reply him in fear. His anxiety starts to kick in. He really didn want to confront Cirrus right now.

As Shin kept quite Cirrus went outraged and shouts in a high voice, ”Answer me damn it! OR else the white skin of yours will used as a rug! ”

Shin can feel his hairs stand up. Chills go through his spine. Even though Cirrus didn shout that loudly the voice indeed can kill someone in fear. It was so authorative that people won hesitate a sec to kneel in front of him and beg for forgiveness without their fault.

”I-i…i w-was sleeping. ” Shin wanted to cry. He was so anxious and nervous. How unfortunate for him to start the weekend like this.

”Such a dumb **. Today at 5. Meet me at the children park near the fishing pond. Dare not to come, your holy parents won bother to find your corpse. ” With that he hangs up. Why he always gets into such a situations? He then tidy up his bed and washes up. It was 8 in the morning and everyone was chatting downstairs in the dining table. He really didn want to see his parents cold behaviour early in the morning. So he just munches some Oreos he sneaked in his room. He scrolls his phone while chewing and sees several messages from Cirrus. He opens those messages and sees Cirrus was just asking how was his cheek. Not bothering to explain anything. Then when he didn get replies he started threating and cursing. He then sees 20 missed calls from him. Again there was a message from an unknown number.

”Hi Shinso. Im Kris. Did you treat your wound? ”

Just one message. Shin didn know Kris will contact him this fast. He replied him with a quick yes. As for Cirrus, Shin didn have the courage to message him. So he didn reply him. He was going to meet him anyways. After eating he has nothing to do so he starts doing some math. It took him3 hours to solve 10 maths. He was famished as he didn have breakfast. He goes upstairs and sees the whole house empty. There was a sticky note on the fridge his mom wrote, ”going to Patty aunts. Take care of the house. ”

He read it and sighed. He took out some cooked noodles and a pizza slice from fridge and heated those up.

It was 2 in the noon when his mom came back. Samin and his dad were god knows where. Shin watched TV for sometimes. When his mom came into the room she asked, ”Did you eat? ” Shin says yes with a smile while his mom just looks at him expressionless. Then she goes to her room. While they were gone Shin cleaned the room floors and tidied up the kitchen. It really calmed Shins mind. When his mom comes out of her room and goes to the kitchen she becomes surprised. Her mood even brightens up.

”Did you clean the kitchen? ” She asks Shin.

”Ah yes. I was bored. ” Shin nervously says.

”Good. If you got nothing to do then come help me in cooking. ” Shin was delighted. It was really rare for his step mom to call out for some help. She never liked his company. Now shes willingly asking him to help Shin can disobey her. He happily goes to kitchen. Seeing the bright smile on her step sons face the corner of her lips slightly rise upwards.

”Mom. Where did Samin and dad go? ” Shin asks while cutting some carrots.

”To the church. ” His father was really religious. He goes to the church frequently. While Shins step mother doesn have much spiritual beliefs. Thats why Shins father can tolerate him a little bit. He just replies with an Oh.

Shins whole family planned to go theatre to watch some movies in the evening. Shin wanted to go too but he remembers the encounter with Cirrus. If he doesn show up to Cirrus only cool god knows whatll he do to him. So he made some excuses of doing extra studies and they didn really care bout it. His father was in happy mood so he didn criticised either. Only Samin was looking at him with suspicious eyes.

Shin really didn want to see Cirrus right now. Why would he even call him? Shin thought Cirrus was busy with the upcoming game. Anyways at 5 he heads for the park. As no one was in the house Shin was scared burglars may cut in any times. So he put extra locks along with digital lock keeping the keys in his back pocket. The whole family will come at night so he wont have to worry bout returning early. While he was walking on the street someone messaged him. He though Cirrus was reminding him again but it was from Kris. He opens the message box seeing a ”Ok ”. He doesn bother to reply him.

When he reached the park it was very crowded. All kinds of people came here to spend weekend free times with children. The noises was cheerful, giggling of children could make anyone want to join their play. He looks around to find Cirrus. It was so crowded his head was spinning. Suddenly someone taps on his shoulder lightly. When he looks back he sees a silky straight black haired guy with a surgical mask on, wearing sunglasses and a crimson hoody, matching trouser with black sneakers looking at him impatiently. It was him. He looked like an idol disguising himself in the public place to avoid paparazzi. Cirrus takes Shins hand and drags him out of the park.