Pity Party(bxb)

{I spent the whole day in my head.}

-Mac Miller

Brother. Shinso has a step brother. Basically his step brother Samin was his step mothers child from her previous marriage. They were at same age but having the beaming boyish charm, good looks and grades, he was the apple of eye of his parents.

Samin used to live with his father but hes coming here. What a pain in the ass. One thing was bugging Shinso that his step brother hated him. For being gay.

”Oh. ”

”Don oh me. I want you to behave properly with Sam and make sure he doesn feel any difficulties while living here. ”

”And pack your things. You
e moving to basement. ”

WHAT?!

”But dad- ”

”No excuse. Your brother will take the bedroom and the basement is clean too. Im sure youll manage. ”

Shinso couldn think anything. That basement was cold and dark. How could his own father do that to him? He chose a stranger over his own son. Well not that shin has any expectations. He couldn . He was worthless anyways.

Hell he can never be a child to be proud of.

”Ok. ” Almost inaudible.

At night he transfers all his things to the basement. He is now lying on his double mattress. Step mom wanted to talk with him but with an excuse he stopped her.

His mind roams to todays all incidents. From Lanas harsh words to his step brothers topic and his fathers decision. He feels his eyes brimming with tears. Whys he even alive. He misses his mom. He knows if his mom were alive she would be there for him. But hes alone now. With no one to hold him in the cold. No one to comfort him.

Everybody deserve happiness. He aint getting any. Shinso gets out of the house. Hes now walking alongside of the 200 meter concreate bridge.

The water beneath reminds him his 17 years of clueless life. Only if he was something useful. Ehh He was an ugly twig with no ambitions. No dreams. No charms. No talent. Disappointing life with disappointed parents.

Theres nothing ahead of him enough for him to stay alive. Wont it be better to end everything? Nobody will get irritated or disgusted. Hell nobody even cares if he live or die. But its painful to be all alone. Humans are so fragile. They live for others company. Lonely life is no fun.

Every negativity, every sour moments pushed shin to the edge of mental breakdown. His cheeks were puffy and red with dries tears. Weird somehow everything feels light. He really wanted to end everything.

But he couldn . His emotions were messed up. Even though hes useless, he got no courage to end his life. He was coward.

”Will you jump or not? ” What?

Shin looks back.

WHAT THE-!?

Cirrus Virion

Its was indeed him. According to those rumours face like Greek god, those mysterious and uncommon yellowish emerald cat eyes, coal black hair, pale skin, body like an idol. Even though shin never saw or met him in real life because he always hides himself to get away from bullies and again according to rumours the great Cirrus Virion rarely comes to school. Shin was a grade under of cirrus which made cirrus his upperclassman or sunbae.

”A-are you C-cirrus Virion? ” Damn his stuttering.

”Hmm~so you know me. Well everybody knows me or at least heard my name. ”

Yes. Everybody certainly had. And not just because of his typical gay soul, shin really wanted to get to know this mysterious Cirrus Virion.

”W-what are you doing here? That too in midnight? ”

With his cold monotonous eyes he just replies ”Thats none of your business. ”

…

”Why don you jump? ”

”I have no p-plan of dying. ”

”Really?~ You seems as though you have no will to live. Expression says that much. ”

Cirrus starts to walk towards shin. Something bout his aura makes shin extremely nervous. He stops just an inch away from shin. He then lifts his chin and says in a low and husky voice,

”Be my bîtch. ”