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un has now turned into this, losing everything, and it was all his doing.
All him.

Shen Shui Yan could almost be flooded by the remorse in his chest.
He finally and truly realized that he would never, ever be able to obtain this person he was so desperate for.

Great loss, despair, and unspeakable pain encased him.
Shen Shui Yan's eyes were clouded with tears and his lips quivered.
“Ah Yun, Ah Yun, Ah Yun…” He didn't even dare to apologize anymore, because that would be asking for forgiveness.
But…How could he forgive him? How could he ever receive his forgiveness?

Large drops of tears fell down.
Shen Shui Yan had never looked this miserable in his life, so helpless and overwhelmed…

Chu Mu Yun turned his head and looked at him with eyes that had lost their brilliance.
He said to him, “Don't cry.”

Shen Shui Yan raised his head to look at him, but he didn't dare to speak.

Chu Mu Yun was barely able to bring up a smile.
“You did it all for me.”

These words caused Shen Shui Yan to freeze.
He couldn't understand what he was hearing.

Chu Mu Yun reached out and touched his cheek with his pale and lifeless hands, and though there was no strength in them, it felt so warm.
Gasping lightly, he said, “I'm happy.”

Tears welled up in Shen Shui Yan's eyes.
He opened his eyes wide and looked at him, lost.
“Wh…Why?”

Chu Mu Yun smiled weakly as if he wished to continue, but he was completely out of breath.
Opening his mouth, the voice that came from it was extremely quiet.
“I thought you gave up on me.”

“How could I?” Shen Shui Yan quickly responded.

Chu Mu Yun looked at him.
“That's why I'm happy.”

Shen Shui Yan couldn't understand and his voice was quivering like crazy.
“But, I…To you…”

Chu Mu Yun interrupted him.
“It has nothing to do with you.
You did not realize the condition of my body.
You…” Before he could finish speaking, he began gasping violently.

Shen Shui Yan's heart felt painful as if it was being torn apart.
He took his hand and though he did not dare to use any force, he did not dare to hold it too tightly either.
He was so anxious like a child that had done wrong, completely without any ideas on what to do.
He could only call out to him helplessly.
“Ah Yun…”

Chu Mu Yun caught his breath for a moment and asked, “Xiao Yan, do you love me?”

This wasn't the first time he was asked this question, but none of them shook Shen Shui Yan as much as this.

Countless times before, he had given him an answer without hesitation.
He told him he liked him, loved him, wanted him, he could give him any answer with such ease.
But now, he could only open his mouth, but not a single word could come out.

Love…Love.
What really is love?

Unable to receive a response, Chu Mu Yun felt a little dejected.
However, a smile constantly remained at his lips.
“Xiao Yan, I love you…”

Shen Shui Yan was completely frozen.

Chu Mu Yun's unfocused eyes seemed to be filled with Shen Shui Yan.
His figure filled them completely, blocking away even the skies.
He was the only one left.
He said, “I hope you can be happy even if I won't be able to see you, hear you, or feel you.
But I'll stay with you by your side, forever.”

He was going to die, and yet he still gave him the promise of forever.

In that instant, Shen Shui Yan experienced an emotion he had never felt before.

It was so vague, so empty, almost fluttering as if he could never catch it.
He could not see it nor hear it, but…it landed right in his heart.

In the deepest, softest, most vulnerable place.
It branched out into a great tree that dominated all his senses.

Chu Mu Yun closed his eyes, but Shen Shui Yan was completely calm.

He leaned in close and landed a warm kiss on his pale lips.
“Ah Yun, you will not die.”