Borrowed Hearts

Its hard to describe the darkness I found myself in. I have never before experienced such an all encompassing or suffocating blackness. It was cold and lonely, unlike what one would expect from Hell. I couldn see my own hand before my face. Come to think of it, I couldn feel my hand either. None of my sense were functioning. Sight, smell, touch, hearing… all of it. Its as if I don exist in the physical realm.

Only my thoughts, my awareness seem to be functional. But why? Where am I? Why am I here? Who am I? Well, thats easy, I am Jessica Marie Kinsford, this years Homecoming Queen at Lakeview High School, and class valedictorian. I am the only child of my divorced parents.

My dad is Sebastian Lane Kinsford the third, the best lawyer around. Well, almost, Moms lawyer was better in their divorce. She got everything, including me. Her name is Dr. Maria Selena Ramirez, cardiologist.

So, how did I end up lost in this endless nothingness, you may ask? I have no idea. Last thing I remember was drinking spiked punch at my friend Amys party. Maybe I passed out. Hopefully I will wake up soon. This is starting to creep me out a bit.

Wait. Is it getting warmer? Oh crap! Im headed for hell after all! Oh, God! Please forgive me. Im sorry I got drunk! I promise I will never do it again. I will stop sneaking out. I will… BEEP… What the… BEEP…

What is that sound? BEEP. Im starting here muffled voices beyond that beeping sound. I see a brightness above me trying to overtake the darkness. I lift my hand to shield my eyes and notice that I can feel the heaviness of it. I smell disinfectant. The beeping is getting louder, as are the voices.

”Looks like hes coming around, doctor. ” One of the voices says. He? Cool fingers take a hold my hand. ”Squeeze my fingers if you can hear me. ” She said. I squeeze her hand as my eyes blink open and shut trying to adjust to the light. ”Good boy! ” I received a pat to my shoulder with her words. Im dumbfounded. Good boy? is this woman blind? Im one of the bustiest girls in school! Theres no way this nurse should be mistaking me for a boy!

”Let him wake up fully before calling the family. Id rather he be alert and talking before he receives any visitors. ” A male voice announced.

”Yes, Doctor. ”

”Im glad to see you made it out a live, young man. You had us worried there for a little while. ” I tried to focus my eyes on the man who was speaking, but everything was still a little blurry. I wanted to know why I was here and why they insisted on calling me guy, but I couldn form words. I just blinked in wonder at the man. ”You just rest for now. Itll take some more time for you come around. Well be back to check on you in a little bit. Okay? ”

I couldn answer him, but my eyes followed his blurry image, along with the nurses, out the door. Once I was alone, I diverted my attention to the ceiling above me. The sound of the monitor next to my bed beeped in steady rhythm as I tried my best to try to figure out what happened to me and how I ended up in a hospital in the first place. Surely it couldn have been the alcohol. I only had one drink and it wasn really that strong! And seriously, what is with the boy thing?

Subconsciously, I placed my hands on my chest as I mulled things over, not noticing at first that my chest was hard as a rock. I tapped my fingers against my ribs as I thought and thought until it dawned on me… I don have boobs anymore! What?! Did that doctor cut them off?! Why would they do that? I felt my chest up and down but didn feel stitches in the place I thought I would. I felt a painful ridge of stitches under a bandage down the middle of my chest but nothing where my breasts should be. Odd.

I ran my hands further down to my lower belly only to find that region hard as stone too. It should be softer. I was well built for a busty gal, but I was soft in all the right places. There were no hard rock parts to me at all, so I am all kinds of confused. Further down I reach only to get the shock of a lifetime. I have a penis!! They gave me a sex change?!!? What the literal hell?! Im going to have Dad sue the pants off this outfit! How could they do this to me?! Im too beautiful to be a guy